Hey! My name is Ella Walby, and most people would describe me as a certified gym rat. I wasn’t always a fan of the gym though. Growing up, I wasn’t involved in any sports. When I was two years old my dad tried to put me on a soccer team, and I clung to his leg and cried the whole time. So yea... I guess it's fair to say that I wasn’t an athletic child.
It all changed about a year ago when I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa. Before the disorder really took hold, I found myself consumed with insecurities and negative thoughts about my body. I thought cutting my calories and losing weight was the perfect solution, so I decided to put myself on a “diet”.
It wasn’t long before my “low calorie diet” took a turn for the worse. I started restricting all different types of food and I was super strict with myself. Consuming an extremely low carb, no fat, and high protein diet seemed like a great plan at the time. I kept losing more and more weight, and, through it all, I was completely blind to what was happening. I didn’t realize what I was doing to my body, I let disordered thoughts control my life, and I continued to lose weight.
My parents were terrified of my extreme weight loss and took me to see my doctor and a therapist. They told me that I was going to die at this rate, so I decided it was time to change. I learned everything I could about this disorder and how to recover from it. Weight gain was my worst fear.. but I knew it had to happen, and I started to eat again.
Looking back on the whole scenario boggles my mind. The fact that I put my own body through starvation is really crazy to think about.. but I’m not sorry for myself whatsoever. Being faced with the mental and physical challenges that came along with anorexia allowed me to discover greater things.
My life has completely changed in the span of a year. A friend introduced me to weightlifting and I found true passion for a sport. Lifting has taught me how to really push through things, challenge myself, and it seriously tests my mental and physical strength. I feel healthy, energized all of the time (because I eat a lotttt of food lol), and stronger than ever. I’ve gained around 35 pounds since the disorder, and I couldn’t be happier with how far I’ve come.
If you take anything away from this post, I want it to be this-
•Healthy and skinny are two completely different things.
•Food is fuel, so eat more of it! Your body will thank you!
•The human body is amazing at what it does. Trust it, feed it, and it will figure the rest out for itself.
Last thing I promise!! Please message me on Instagram (@ellawalby) if you might be going through an eating disorder yourself and feel lost, or if you just need someone to talk to! I promise it’s a judgement free zone, and I’m more than happy to talk about anything that’s on your mind. Thank you all for reading! <3